Narcotics Anonymous

Just For Today - Daily Email Service

   November 20                                            Finding fulfillment

    "We weren't oriented toward fulfillment; we focused on the emptiness
                        and worthlessness of it all."

                                                            Basic Text, p. 86

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   There were probably hundreds of times in our active addiction when we
   wished we could become someone else.  We may have wished we could trade
   places with someone who owned a nice car or had a larger home, a better
   job, a more attractive mate-anything but what we had.  So severe was our
   despair that we could hardly imagine anyone being in worse shape than
   ourselves.

   In recovery, we may find we are experiencing a different sort of envy.  We
   may continue to compare our insides with others'  outsides and feel as
   though we still don't have enough of anything.  We may think everyone,
   from the newest member to the oldest oldtimer, sounds better at meetings
   than we do.   We may think that everyone else must be working a better
   program because they have a better car, a larger home, more money, and so
   on.

   The recovery process experienced through our Twelve Steps will take us
   from an attitude of envy and low self-esteem to a place of spiritual
   fulfillment and deep appreciation for what we do have.   We find that we
   would never willingly trade places with another, for what we have
   discovered within ourselves is priceless.

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   Just for today:   There is much to be grateful for in my life.  I  will
   cherish the spiritual fulfillment I have found in recovery.